You are an asshole. I work for five months on this piece to play in a recital. I get it sounding beautiful and am ready to play it today but no you decide to throw me out of commission and make me stay in bed all day and not be able to drive or walk longer then 20 feet with out falling down. You fucking suck I wish I had a new one. I’m very frustrated I worked so hard for today.
Sprained my ankle last night. Just what I needed right? So I am spending valentines day at my boyfriends house with my ankle iced and watching movies. Crutches kill me every time I have to use them. Meh I hate these little surprises
Cat threw up on the floor and I am in too much pain to bend over to clean it up. This must be a meme already!
Because things were too good my ms has decided that it has been too nice and needed to remind me of what it can do. I have had a terrible migraine all morning that has kept me from sleeping and school. Back hurts so bad and my arms feel like jelly.
Yesterday was absolutely fantastic. I had a wonderful morning with my boy then later called my teacher from school to talk about piano lessons. This man is awesome and will teach me this semester and I am so happy. It’s the same teacher I had last semester who is the best teacher I have ever had and I am thrilled that he wants to teach me again. Then I went out on a fancy date to a really nice Japanese place in Berkeley with my boy. When we got back to my house after dinner we lucked out with no one being home.
Today I am exhausted though. Bad headache, random Charlie horses, and feeling dizzy. My body is making up for yesterday being too good.
I will say that I am so happy to be loved and accepted by someone who understands my pain and isn’t scared by it. Didn’t think that would happen for years but he just gets it and isn’t insensitive or coddling. Overall very happy and am glad that my pain isn’t stopping me from enjoying life right now.
So I have lost the last of the lyrica weight! 20 pounds lighter now then I was a year ago!
Have a boyfriend now and he is awesome. I had a small pain problem at his house yesterday and he held me till it passed. It was really sweet and I feel very lucky to have someone outside of my family to be able to understand what I go through. Slept over at his place on Friday night and it was awesome to sleep in his arms all night ands wake up to him in the morning. Things are moving fast but it feels right. Falling fast
So my pain levels have been pretty tolerable this last week and I am just waiting for things to go south. It is really sad that I can’t enjoy a less shitty time span when I just keep worrying about how long it will last before things get too shitty again. meh I am sending wonderful thoughts to all of you who are having a sucky time!
back to school on Monday which I am stoked for!last semester before I transfer!
saw brian(the guy I have been kinda dating kinda not but yeah…..its complicated) today again and we came to an understanding.
how do people have serious relationships? they baffle me entirely
Yeah so my friend Brian who things were kinda moving towards being more than friend went full throttle today. We cuddle and took a nap together and then as I was leaving we just sorta started making out on the couch. It was really hot and heavy and it took everything in me to stop because I was late already getting home. Well I really was not planning on this happening at all. Got home late and my dad was pissed. Let go with a warning though. I really need to move out, I am 21 in a couple of days and he is getting mad for me getting home at 11.
Kinda random I know but I felt like posting.
I think it is true that once you are really not wanting to be in a relationship with anyone and are ready for alone time you suddenly find yourself in a relationship. Well yeah looks like things with me are going that way with my friend. Definitely was not planning on it at all. I don’t know though. We cuddle for hours today and it felt really good and comfortable.
other than that: umm pain sucks monkey balls these last few days. the weather went bad again so I am feeling it all over. Only 5 more pounds till I lose the lyrica weight! so happy about that!